Trapped

Trapped in a Maze that has been created

Bombarded with thoughts which made me jaded,

It's when everything has been wasted

With people whose belief were already twisted.

I am running as fast as I could

Just like what a kid usually would

Do in times when mommy is gone

And strangers are laughing and making fun.

Time will pass and I will forget

The fear that I have felt without regret,

It's justified with you not being met

By death and Satan's trapped that was almost set.

A Movie is not Only a Movie

Credits to the Producer of this Film

I have always been a fan of Unpredictable Movies way back when some of them were shown at Channel 2 when I was young. I am not sure if you remember those kinds of movies that were directed by some of the top caliber film makers with the likes of Lino Brocka, Ishmael Bernal, Mike de Leon and Peque Gallaga. My favorites were Maynila: Sa mga Kuko ng Liwanag, Oro, Plata,Mata and Tinimbang Ka Ngunit Kulang. I love how they have executed the scenes and how the ending had been revealed. These kinds of films are definitely in to the stories which are not that really popular and were not so mainstream. A taste of intriguing facts were uncovered to tickle the minds of all its viewers.

During the 1990's, these types of films had suddenly vanished and had been replaced by mainstream ones which tackles very predictable plots, until Indie Films rose from somewhere. I got interested with it because it tries to resembles how the famous Directors (which were mentioned above) had executed their masterpiece.

The actors and actresses on these kinds of films usually act so naturally, thus the emphasis was always being put on the emotion and not on the actors themselves. I just thought of this one upon watching "KEKA" last Sunday on GMA 7. Katya Santos played the part of Keka (Francesca Jose), although she and almost all of the casts were from mainstream group, what caught my interest is the story itself and the music (I love Sugarfree's Unang Araw!! :)...very unpredictable. Of course credits to Quark Henares who directed the film.

Please see below:

click here for KEKA: TRAILER

Unang Araw by SugarFree (Part of the Soundtrack)

Tulay

Matalinghaga ang buhay at malalim ang kahulugan,

Puno ng tanong at ang sagot ay hindi matagpuan..

Sa bawat oras na lumilipas ay may hinihintay,

Ang taglay na pag-ibig sa inyo ko iaalay.

Kamusta ang Unos? Sa inyo ba ay dadaan?

Ito ay nagngangalit na wari'y nakikipaglaban,

Ang daluyong ng tubig ay raragasa sa tulay

Ngunit hindi guguho sapagkat ang materyal ay tunay.

Ganyan ang tao kung puso ay may kabutihan

Lahat ng pagsubok ay tiyak na malalagpasan,

Ang mga nawala'y magbabalik sa buhay

Sapagkat, walang makakahigit sa pag-ibig na taglay.

Eto na!!! (ang bangungot)

Ako ay pansamantalang naglaho sa sirkulasyon ng blogspot, sapagkat ako ay nasa estado ng halu-halong emosyon na nagsimula kahapon.

Burahin ang masasamang Memorya

Naimbitahan ako sa Birthday at may halong pa-despedida na rin sa isa kong kabarkada sa BSU na si Rowie nung gabi ng Sabado. Kasama ko si Enteng na nagpunta sa 10th bar para mag-celebrate kasama ng mga pinakamamahal kong kaibigan na matagal ko ng hindi nakikita at lagi kong ini-injan sa lahat ng lakaran (loner??). Isang normal na kasayahan lamang ang nangyari; biruan, kuwentuhan, nanood ng mga nag perform at kung anu-ano pa. Natapos ang gabi at nagpasya na kaming maghiwa-hiwalay ng mga bandang alas dose hanggang ala una nun). Sumakay kaming anim (ako, enteng, viebz, whel, rowie at eric) ng jeep na byaheng pa-Malinta yata sa aking pagkakatanda sa may San Pablo, Malolos Bulacan. Nakapuwesto kami sa may malapit sa babaan ng jeep at may sumunod na mga sumakay na dalawang lalaki sa tabi ng driver. Sa may bandang Tabang, Guiguinto (sa Eurobake, para maging eksakto) may apat na lalaking sumakay na pumuwesto sa bandang likuran ng driver. Wala kaming hinagap na maaring mapanganib ang mga iyon sapagkat nagkakabiruan pa nga kami, taliwas sa nararamdaman ni Enteng... nakita na niya na may nakatago sa damit ng isa sa kanila. Marami na raw umiikot sa utak ni Enteng nang panahon na iyon ngunit biglang may 2 lalaki na sumabit pa sa jeep.

Matapos lamang ang ilang sandali, nagdeklara na ng holdap ang mga lalaking un. Sa totoo akala ko na out of balance lang ang isang lalaki kaya napatagilid, ngunit ng kinuha na niya ang gamit ni Whel, dun na ako natulala, take note!! natulala. Tinutukan na kami ng mga kutsilyo habang isa-isang hinahablot ang mga gamit nmin. Ilan na lamang sa mga eksena ang natatandaan ko:

Viebz: "ayaw ko po!" (nawala din cguro sa sarili c viebs kaya ayaw niyang ibigay ang mga gamit niya,pero nang lumaon ay ibinigay na rin niya, sabi nga namin.. "delikado ang ginawa mo viebz"

Whel: "Ibigay mo na Eric!!!!!" ( ang nakaktawa nito, lusot na sana si Eric!, di pa naman hinihingi gamit niya tapos pinabigay ni Whel... ahahahahaha!! joke!..

Enteng: "Sir, kahit ID lang po"

Halimaw: "anung ID.. P*#@&#ina ka!!!!" (sabay akmang pagsaksak sa kanya ng mahabang kutsilyo).

Ako naman ay natulala habang hinihila ng isang halimaw ang shoulder bag na naka-cross sa katawan ko. Dahil nga naka cross ang tali, nahirapan siyang tanggalin at nang umabot na sa may buhok ko, naharangan naman ng ponytail ang tali na lalo pang nagpahirap sa akin at para akong asong may kadena. Nang dahil sa pwersa, natanggal ang pony tail at tuluyan nilang nakuha ang mga gamit at bags naming lahat. (buti na lang hindi niya inakala na ayaw ko ibigay kundi tigok ang leeg ko!)

Bumaba ang mga lalaki, sabay sigaw ng "paandarin mo na!!!!!!". Pinaandar ng driver ang jeep ngunit medyo mabagal siya na lalo pang nagbigay ng takot sa akin at sa aming lahat dahil puwede pa silang humabol. Nang natapos na ang kumosyon, isinigaw ko ang takot at tumangis ng pagka lakas-lakas.. hanggang sa hindi ko na ata nakayanan, ako ay nawalan ng malay. Ayon sa kuwento nila, umiikot daw ang paningin ko nun at hindi na halos malaman kung may hininga pa. Hindi ko na matandaan ang nangyari, pero naririnig ko ang mga boses nila ngunit hindi ko magalaw ang katawan ko. "Mau!! Mau!!! gumising ka!!!! nauulinigan ko, kawawang mga kaibigan ko.. huhuhuhu.. nag-alala ng husto sa kalagayan ko.

Habang nagyayari ang lahat ng ito, nakita namin na may nakasunod na tricycle sa amin at ang malupit! sakay ang mga halimaw. Ngunit sabi nila, nawala rin ata, dahil pumasok sa isang kanto (hindi ko alam kung anu eksena masyado dito). Matapos nun ay nagising ako at nakita ko na may mga tao na, at ang sumunod na mga eksena ay sa Police Station na ng Guiguinto (na ang mga Pulis ay napaka efficient, joke!!! mga tulog ang mga tinamaan ng tooooooooooott!!). Nagkaroon ng pag ronda, una sa may Malis na pugad daw ng mga holdaper, kasama kami (Guiguinto rin) pero wala ring nakita. Nang walang lead, bumalik kami sa may tricykelan at doon ay napag alaman namin na sa Tabon (bandang Bulacan, Bulacan) nagpahatid ang mga Halimaw, (if I know! kasabwat din ang mga driver ng tricycles na nakausap namin). Nang ginaygay namin ang lugar, sobrang madilim at sobrang depressed ang itsura ng mga bahay, (naiisip namin habang tinitingnan namin ang mga barong-barong, isa sa mg bahay na ito... nakamasid ang mga halimaw..tumatawa dahil nakatakas sila.)

To make the story shorter, may pagka Intel Inside ang mga Pulis (Inutil) at walang nangyari kundi "BLOTTER"(normal na proseso, normal na dead end katapusan ng bawat pagrereport di ba? hindi na uso yung nahuhuli ang mga suspects?.

Naghiwa-hiwalay na kaming lahat, tangan ang isang bonding na kailanman ay hindi malilimutan. Umuwi muna kami ni enteng sa bahay nila sa Malolos upang magpakalma at saglit na magpahinga (alam kong sobra rin ang pagod at pag-aalala niya). Tinawagan niya ang Kuya ko para sabihin ang mga nangyari at gaya ng inaasahan kalmado si Kuya pero ramdam mo ang pag-aalala. Nagpasya si Kuya na huwag na munang sabihin sa Mama ko dahil may sakit sa puso, kaya lahat ng iyon ay hindi nalaman ni Mama habang wala ako.

Dumating ako ng bahay.. DUMATING AKO NG BAHAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! salamat GOD!!!!!!! SALAMAT!! buhay po kami!!.

Isang Traumatic na Gabi.. akala ko sa pelikula lang nagaganap, pero hindi pala. Sa ngayon, hindi na ako nakakaramdam ng kahit anu pa man (cge na nga, nkakaramdam ako ng takot, phobia pag nakakakita ng grupo ng mga lalaki). Pinipilit kong kalimutan at iniisip ko na lang mahalaga buhay ako....kami..

Isa pa, pinagtibay pa ng pangyayaring yun ang pundasyon ng relasyon naming magbabarkada at ang pundasyon ng relasyon namin ni Enteng.

Mahal na mahal ko sila!!!.. eh ano kung wala akong cellphone??? eh ano kung wala akong kahit ano??.. nandiyan naman sila at nakita ko rin ang mga taong nag-alala at may pakialam sa akin. Salamat sa inyong lahat!!

Eto na!!!! ang memories ng barkada!

Anger Management...

There was an instance this past week when my patience has been put into test. I am not easily being pissed at someone if they have done something awful to me, but if they keep on doing it to me on numerous events then that's the time when the dormant volcano will become active.

I have to admit it, anger really contributed to the stress that I have felt but then again I am not liking that. I keep on thinking on what had happened during that disappointing situation when I got angry, and I kept on telling to myself that what she has been doing to me and  to some of our colleagues were definitely wrong. I came to the realization that I shouldn't have let anyone put me down anyway, and that made me justified my anger even more. The tendency is that, I let myself flourish the rage that I was feeling that time and it's very difficult to contain, I swear!. However, now that I have finally overcome it by not paying so much attention to that person and to what had happened, I can't help but to think of ways on how I will be able to manage my anger.

I find below key points very effective for me during the times when I am starting to get pissed:

1. Take a deep breath.

2. Let that someone finish his/her argument and say nothing.

3. Listen to his/her explanation but at the same time, think of a very peaceful scenery in order to balance your emotion. ( a very difficult thing to do)

4.Try to look for a reason why he or she is acting that way. It might help you realize that you should not engage yourself to a fight with someone who has a totally different perception with yours.

5. After doing the points above, express your opinion in a nice but firm way.

These things are not that easy to do but I am also trying my best to practice what I have written above. I'll just raised everything up to the Lord as I know, anger won't lead me to anywhere but stress.

New Age

"Heaven".. that's how it feels when I am listening to Vangelis, Enya and Enigma's music. Their genre is not that popular to some of you but trust me, they can really soothe one's soul when you listen to them. You will usually see their tracks on my playlist when I am sort of stressed already. It just gives me a very relaxing atmosphere which totally helps me to focus on what I am doing and to ease the pressure. For me? only genius artists will be able to incorporate this kind of ambiance on their masterpiece, where the impression of mystery is really evident.

Their sound is part of a genre called "New Age". This pertains to various styles that creates relaxation and optimism which are also being used for yoga, meditation and massage. It is also a good medium to create a very peaceful atmosphere on our cribs and often associated with Environmentalism. When you listen to it, try to close your eyes and imagine a virgin world or the cosmos in order for you to feel the tranquility.

Some of my favorite tunes are as follows:

Enya - Storms in Africa
Karl Jenkins - Adiemus
Vangelis - Conquest of Paradise
Gregorian - The Gift

The Libra...in Me

There are some instances in our lives that we find some of our behaviors too unique from that of the others. You will ask yourself, "is it just me who's feeling and acting this way or are there some peepz out there who are also experiencing the same?". I must admit, yes I am bit eccentric sometimes but I am trying my very best not to cross the border that much, to the point wherein being freak will become one of my traits.

Apparently, one time I was surfing the net and tried to seek for some answers if there were any. I checked for my birth sign which is LIBRA and I found an article that really caught my attention and interest. I was just so astonished that the full article really described who I really am,in fact I was laughing while I was reading it. I love how the so-called BALANCE was emphasized on the article. It seems that the life of a Libran revolves around the idea of a never ending search for the balance on everything that we do or feel and we will not stop until we get the right mix. In addition to that, some points there that I really find amazingly correct  are as follows:

• "He loves people and hates to be rude to anyone."
• "On one hand, Librans are very intelligent, on the other; they may be amazingly naive and susceptible."
• "They come across as restless, but seldom seem to be in a hurry."
• "a Libra mind is prone to fickleness."
• "He is always weighing the pros and cons of a situation and finds it very difficult to form the perfect, balanced, opinion"
• "They will keep on working for weeks, even months, at a time, managing on four-hours sleep everyday. Then, suddenly, they will feel completely exhausted and go into the laziness spell. Once this happens, it is impossible to even make them move a limb." LOL..
• "he may become too sentimental one moment, turn sarcastic the other moment and become extremely cheerful in the very next. Again, it's not their dual personality, but a Libran's constant need to experience different emotion at different points of time." 

Hahahaha.. Ain't that very ME??? I definitely agree with the mentioned traits. If you would ask me, who is being described above? that would undoubtedly be me and all of the other Librans out there.. would you agree?

Promises are made to be Broken

"Promises are made to be broken!", yes they are! but I don't take it negatively. That's the reason why as much as possible, I don't make any promises to anyone at all. I just do what needs to be done and I won't tell anyone about it unless I have already executed the task. Perhaps my promises were just  kept in my heart and in my mind. I silently speak to myself and make a vow to do something be it work, family or relationship related concerns.

I would love myself to be compared to a "sniper", haha!, quietly and surely aiming the target promise. However, not all people have this kind of philosophy when it comes to this matter, that's when confusion and disappointments occur at most. I hate it when some are bragging about what they can do and what they can provide, but then again it will just be left hanging in the air.

So to end this opinion up, just a piece of thought.. never give out any promises that you will never be able to do or better yet, never give out any promises at all. Luckily, all people who are very close to me are also snipers like me.

Lakas ng Trip

Sa dinami-dami ng subject na puwedeng makunan ng Pics etong mga 'to ang naging paborito ko:

Ang aking asong walang kamalay-malay (tsk! tsk! tsk!)

Halloween mode sa bahay, ako at ang kuya ko

"Amo! hindi ba cruelty to animal to? PETA asan kau.. ahahaha"

Blag ni Maw

Nitong nakaraang araw habang nasa byahe ako, bigla kong natawa nung naalala ko yung text na natanggap ni Nicole Hyala sa Tambalang Balasubas at Balahura. Ito yung segment ng show na nagbibigay sila ng advice and it goes something like this, "ako po si (di ko na matandaan ang name eh! hehe), ako po ay isang BUTTERED WIFE".. hahahaha, minantikilyang misis ito teh!. Siyempre umulan ng pang-ookray galing kay Nicole lalo na nung in-spell niya yung butter na dapat sana ay BATTERED. Naisip ko tuloy yung mga katulad na  mga pangayayari sa pang araw-araw kong pamumuhay. Sa opis, sa daan at kahit saan.. may mga salitang napaghahalo-halo o nabibigkas ng medyo lihis sa tama. Paunawa, ang lahat ng nakalista sa baba ay hango sa tunay na mga narinig ko...katuwaan lang walang  bahid pang-aalipusta, pang-ookray? hmmm... baka..ahahaha

* sa email: "We are going round ENCIRCLES!" - nagagalit sa email, paikot-ikot daw kami...sabi ng IN CIRCLES, " ako dapat ang nandiyan!

*In furness - saan? sa aso o sa pusa?? ... pede ring bigkasing "In fairness"

* "Oldo" - kapatid ni Baldo, at malapit kay Although.

* Sa Phone: "all right, thank you boat!" - nagpapasalamat sa 2 taong kausap sa phone, so nagsasalita ang boat?


* "Over Juice" - Pag hindi pa nababayaran ang invoice, over juice! pineapple or mango? mamili ka..

* "Second Dyir" - pagkatapos ng First Tyir, Second Dyir.

* Sa Jeep sa may Edsa, Caloocan: "Pakibaba lang po ako sa Kanto T______", kuya, try mo naman Kanto po ng Tinio.

* "Laugh Top" - de-tiklop na kompyuter, laugh top.

* "Bambi Jumping" - extreme sports

* Efrin - pangalan ng kapatid ko, spells as Efren pero nang may naghanap sa phone "hello, anjan po ba si efrin?"

* the nerd!!!! - expression na may matinding galit, sabi ng nerve "oh ikaw na nerd!"

* sa classroom, teacher: sino pa ang di nagpapasa?, student: Sir! si Matthew Pa!!!!!

ahahahaha.. sorry naman, laugh trip lang.. ako na daw ang mapag-observe.. chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...........