Motherhood: You Will Know When you Get There

I have often wonder, "how was it like to be a mother?", they say it's difficult but honestly I just have a slight idea of how difficult it is based on what I have seen in my mom. Time went by and I can say that somehow I think I have become a good daughter to my mom. I said to myself that whenever that time comes, I will be just like her? I will really take good care of my child.


December 2013, it all started out as a minor headache, exhaustion and a bit discomfort when I am moving, then comes the worst. I was cooking our breakfast then, until I almost fainted and wanted to throw up everything. I was afraid that it's hypertension but I also turned to the possibility of being pregnant, and indeed I was 5 weeks on my way.

Of course I am happy, very much delighted of the gift. However, along with it are feeling of anxiety, worry and all those unexplained symptoms that made me so sick. These things are considered taboo and are not being discussed because people have a tendency to judge you if you say that you somehow felt these negative things. However, I really believe that mom to be's need to have support people to freely discuss these thoughts inside her.

Meanwhile, by dealing and accepting all of it, I am now trying to understand what motherhood is all about; Facing all these obstacles and being strong mentally and physically. It's not easy to worry about your child; being paranoid when there's a discharge especially during the first 2 mos, morning sickness which in my case comes not easy, the demand of my work on this period, fading away of your strength and beauty, the hormonal imbalance that causes me to cry and cry until I fall asleep or uncontrollable madness or happiness on the next few hours, the things at home that I can't do which definitely making me frustrated. Pregnancy is not easy and it's not about just being happy, it's all about sacrifices, love and conquering your own sanity and self.

One thing that I've learned? this period is one of the most difficult phase. One way or another, all women who undergone this stage have felt the same way that I did but I am trying to deal with it. Thanks to our families and friends who are still keeping in touch. Of course to my husband who is always there to understand and who is always stirring my emotions up when I need it.

I am not like other women out there who have taken their pregnancy that easy and every individual has different body chemistry and emotional capacity to handle things out. However, I can say that I am doing my very best to contain myself and this is what motherhood is...the ability to control and fight not for yourself but for your little one..selflessness..

Bamboo: An invitation for A Mini-Concert

Nope! This is not an article nor a story that just popped out of my mind :) But hey!!! i just met you! lols.. but hey! check this out peepz!!!

This is an invitation to all of you guys who might want to see Bamboo in an acoustic set-up (or know someone who might be interested) . Please see promo picture for the full details of the event.

You may also contact the numbers written on the pic should you have any queries.

One way of relaxing on the first Saturday of December, ayt!! :)

....a support to my colleagues.

Bakit mo nga ba kailangang mag move-on kung hindi naman naging kayo???

“Bakit mo nga ba kailangang mag move-on kung hindi naman naging kayo???”..  tanong na nanggaling sa post ni Mommy Rica, sino si Mommy Rica? Siya ay isang pinagkakatiwalaang kaibigan ng may-akda ng komentaryong ito. Sige! Sino dito ang hindi pa nakakaranas mag move-on sa taong hindi naman niya naging jowa?? Simula pa siguro nung elementary eh naranasan mo nang masaktan dahil hindi ka pinapansin nung crush mong basketball player na grade 6! Hahahahaha..

Pero seryoso, bakit nga ba no? siguro hindi lang natin matanggap na may mga bagay na hindi talaga puwede kya hindi tayo makamove-on. May mga namimiss tayo na mga pagkakataon kaya tayo nasasaktan dahil lumalim na masyado ang samahan. Ang masasabi ko lang, letting go is not easy especially if you haven’t really got a tight hold of it, sa isang simpleng kadahilanang “wala kang karapatan”. People come and go and they will teach you so many things in life that you will never ever experience if you haven’t met them at all. C’mon, everything that happened and will happen to all of us clearly shows the choices that we made and will be making. 

So if there comes a time that you feel that you need to move on from something that you want to leave behind, just remember that it is a sign of maturity. Naisip ko bigla, ang daming may gusto sa kantang “Somebody that I used to know”, well I don’t believe that it’s just because of the inviting melody. This is because of the message of the song itself;  we all have our own “somebody”. Somebody that would somehow put a smile on your face whenever you think of all the memories. However, at the end of the day we need to admit that he/she is already gone, and will only remain a part of the past. That’s how life works! So many moving-ons! And catching ups to do but always remember that the past no longer matters. It is what and who we have right now that really matters that we should hold unto and treasure.

Kulasa’s Thoughts: Ang Batang Walain

Let me share what's on my mind...Here I go Again, I am a perfect recipe of a doomed individual who is prone to an uncomfortable position!!! ALWAYS and its consistent!!!!!!.  Kundi nawawalan, nananakawan, nahoholdup.. . ako na ang batang walain na may touch ng katangahan at pagiging pabaya. Iyan ang napapala ng pagiging focused sa isang bagay kaya hindi na nakikita ang nangyayari sa kabila. Katulad ng nangyari kahapon, 3 oras lang ang tulog ko at alalang alala pa ako sa baha sa bahay, in short bangag ako kahapon sa FX. Hindi ko inaasahan na may ganung eksena kaya panatag akong nakaupo kahit na sobrang siksikan na talaga. Ang katabi ko naman ay maayos ang itsura, may malaking bag nga lang siya, pero wala naman akong naramdaman na kahit na ano. Yun nga lang, hindi ko nakikita ang bag ko dahil madilim sa loob ng sasakyan. Ang naalala ko lang, antok na antok na ako at sa sobrang haba ng biyahe ko ay di ko na namamalayan na minsan ay napapatulala na ako sa sobrang kapaguran. Idagdag pa diyan ang maraming bagay na tumatakbo sa isip ko kaya oo kasalanan ko nga kaya nangyari yun.

Pero pakiramdam ko tinatapik na naman niya ako, ang dami ng nawawala sa akin…dahil sa mga bagay na iniisip ko na sa loob ng ilang buwan ay nagiging alipin na ako.  Mukhang kailangan ko na nga yatang bitawan ang mga bagay na yun para makapagsimula na ulit. Hindi ko sasabihing kamalasan iyon, o malas ako, may dahilan kung bakit nangyayari ang mga bagay-bagay at alam kong may dahilan kung bakit nangyari ito. Yun ay upang magising na ako, “Gising na Mau!!!!!”  bago may mawalang iba sa iyo…Give it a break! Give it a Kit-Kat…Haaaaaayyyyy.. Life.